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it's been a while. i've been thinking i need to be posting more often but i just cannot figure out what to post! so this is just a brain dump that's probably going to rival faulkner's style in the sound and the fury but most likely will just sound like a rambling account of an unconnected series of events. at least, that's what i think it's going to be like in this moment before i even start writing... this could change.
it occurred to me that since i forget stuff so easily, and i have to look up this stuff that i know i know but i keep forgetting that maybe if i put it in a blog post (or journal entry) that i might be more likely to remember it.
like today when i couldn't remember how to connect a compose project to an existing network... ya ... that sounds obscure. lemme explain... CW: a lot of tech speak follows. you can prolly skip the next two paragraphs if it's too obscure.
so docker containers are like little mini computers running in memory of one big computer. it's a way to create a multi-application/multi-server-like environment without several pieces of hardware. you can run several isolated applications on one server without compromising any one app or the server itself. it's a nice way to cheaply self-host your stuff.
for each set of applications, though, the docker software will create a wholly new isolated environment such that it is completely cut off from the server itself or other containers. so like you can run a set of containers (or applications) that can connect to the outside internet without knowledge of or interaction with anything else running on that server.
thing is, if you want an application to communicate with your server (or another application) you have to configure it in such a way that your application sits in the same local area network as your server (or other application).
for me, i have a default network environment that i have a couple containers in. they can talk to one another and the internet, but nothing else really. and today i wanted to connect another application to that environment. and i couldn't for the life of me remember how to do that. i had to go look up again.
it's actually quite simple...
services:
app:
network_mode: bridge
image: busybox
side note: and just now i went off on a tangent trying to figure out how to get syntax highlighting to work on this blog... you'll note i didn't get it working. i stopped searching because the whole point was to write ... not tech.
i have been using logseq to note all my thoughts and organise my thinking and there is a way to publish a logseq graph, but i haven't really experimented with it yet. maybe once i get that working, it'll be easier to get my thoughts out instead of bottling them up until i forget what it was i wanted to write about in the first place.
speaking of ... i've now forgotten everything i had wanted to put in this blog post...
which sort of brings me to what's been happening with me ... so i've been experiencing a myriad number of symptoms for a few years now. i've spoken to a number of doctors and sufferers and come to the conclusion that what might be going on is myalgic encephalomyelitis (that's a cdc.gov link because i want y'all to start reading about this from somewhere ... anywhere ... not because the cdc is any kind of authority on ME)
it's chronic - which means long-lived, or a "no end in sight" type deal. there's no known cure or treatment... it's all about managing symptoms. and one of the key indicators is PEM or post-exertional malaise which just means i get tired from everything. the best way to manage it is to know my limits, stop when i reach it, and rest until i can go again. if i don't, i can be sick for days and days and days - and being sick means i can barely shower or get dressed and my memory is shot to hell until i recover. there are other symptoms, of course (sometimes i get a sore throat and a cough sometimes it's hella aches and pains like i've been running for miles).
so when i say i forget shit, i actually am forgetting shit. like i will have full conversations with people and have no memory of it. it's bizarre and very disconcerting. like i am sitting here thinking that i must have written about this before ... especially since last year my then doc sent me to do a sleep study because she wanted a simple explanation ... because she couldn't be bothered to treat me like i knew what i was talking about ... because she took the materials i gave her about ME and tossed them in the bin (most likely), cos she sure as shit did not read any of it. how do i know? because after the sleep study, i got a lecture on exercise and healthy sleep habits. (and searching tells me i have indeed talked about this here before - fuck me - i really need a way to track my tags on here better.)
and yet another rabbit hole for me - it's been a few minutes because i went down another rabbit hole trying to figure out how to link all tags somewhere on the site so i can help myself remember which tags i've used and be able to see what i've written under each tag because brain fog ... and why not ... it's not like we have enough symptoms to contend with, right?
this is already a too-long post full of sound and fury signifying not a lot ... so let's summarise:
- i've been wanting to write but i either:
- forget what i want to write by the time i fire up my laptop
- or i need to craft it better than stream-of-consciouness style like this and have no energy
- i keep getting stuck in rabbit holes and forgetting what it was i had started to do before
- i've been using logseq for my journal lately (see? i even forgot to tell you why logseq and what i was using before and why i switched)
- rehashing ME/CFS even though i've talked about it here before
i'm gonna try and write more often... i'll most likely keep getting stuck in rabbit holes until i get the flow down properly, but here's 🍻 to hoping i can actually get moving again soon. i miss regular blogging. corporate social media really spoiled us.